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Well, where to begin? LOL. For one, you're welcome. Explaining our experiences is cathartic, and has helped me keep perspective on our situation. The world is a mess up place, especially now so there's far more serious problems to keep in mind than what we/she did. What could've prepared us better? Knowing for sure would've helped us prepare emotionally for the birth. Most likely I would've not been present, though we probably would have suggested a cover story that she's a surrogate mom, etc. It wasn't so much that she was sad, and fearful of the reality hitting her. I mean, she was already a hormonal mess so having a biracial baby when you have a white husband pushed over the edge. That's what she told me, and she wasn't mad at me, but needed reassurance that I'd keep my word. In retrospect the nurse was trying to calm our visibly frayed nerves, but again, in the moment we weren't processing on all cylinders so gut reaction was that she was fucking with us, teasing us and me especially but in retrospect I know otherwise. As far as having another baby, biracial or otherwise, nope. The factory went out of business so she's had four ******* and she's over with that.