I knew from a young age. I was always attracted sexually to black men. Never acted on it back than though. To this day I have zero interest in anything of a relationship with a man of any race. I would wrote fiction stories as a young and play around on the internet but never met up with anyone despite opportunities. Probably out of fear.
Well I could say Definitely out of fear of someone finding out or uncertainty of my sexuality .
Fast forward to my late 30s. One night afterf I headed out to a local dive bar. After getting pretty twisted I put out an ad and got hit up. We talked for a bit and decided it's now or never. I picked him up and drove to a secluded spot and gave him oral. He wasn't big or overly thick and I was pretty disappointed. He told me he was really sensitive and he came really quick. I didn't swallow. I dropped him off and never messaged him again
Fast forward about 2 years. I was in a relationship and consistently fighting with my gf. The sex was good, and I loved her, but she lived in PA I was in New Jersey. It was right during and coming out of the covid.
I'll leave all the personal details out but I remember we had gotten into a pretty big fight. I ended up going out and was pretty hammered. Couldn't drive and sat in my car and was watching porn. The urge was still there so I dl'd an app and met up with a local guy. Picked him up in my car and drove around the block and parked on a dead end quiet street. I unzipped his pants and saw a very thick yet not fully hard bbc. I was fixated on it and had feelings that I never experienced before. I wanted to do everything and anything I could to please him. Feeling him grow in my mouth was amazing. I knew despite my inexperience what I was doing was working. I didn't swallow, but got him off. I just wasn't ready for that yet. Since that day though the thoughts would ferment in my head like a *******. I must please superior black cock.
Since these two encounters there was 2 more that I let safely get to the next level and some of the most mind altering sex I ever had. I don't question it anymore, although I keep my life private. Given the opportunity I'm a black cock slut. 100% purely physical. I still have zero interest in dating men and I'm still sexually and emotionally attracted to women, but you can't wake up and have the same cereal everyday either