When I wasn't in my mid thirties, I got invited to a christening party for my co-workers niece. It was a house and backyard barbecue affair, and their were lots of people there. I was sitting down with some of the other girls and felt a hand on my shoulder. It was a young black guy, barely out of high school from the looks of him. He started chatting me up and then returned several times hitting on me pretty hard. He was really cute, funny, and engaging but I wasn't ready get involved with a black guy or to get into an affair at that particular time. I thought about him like all of a sudden and out of the blue a few months ago, and he has been on my mind a lot lately. I wonder how my life might have changed if I had been a bit more open to his advances. Is that weird or what?