So I am debating whether or not to continue to pursue a lifestyle for her to enjoy when she tells me she feels used. We have only had about 10 occasions where she has been with a BBC but only 5 partners in a 10 year span. She had absolutely enjoyed herself because she has told me that she just feels excited and sexxy fucking a BBC of her choice while I watch. She has blushed when speaking about one of them in particular and to the point of getting immediately wet when his name would pop up in a random conversation. She says she does it for me which I am extremely grateful for the opportunity to see her dirty side and let's face it she loves herself some BBC!
I get conflicting information from her to the point that sometimes I feel bad because she makes it seem like I am making her do something I don't want her to do but I never pressure her into doing anything because let's face it the woman has complete control of when and where and with whom she is going to be pleasured by.
I am confused and I find myself at a crossroads because I honestly don't know what to do moving forward.
Can anyone offer any advice that can help guide me through this?
I get conflicting information from her to the point that sometimes I feel bad because she makes it seem like I am making her do something I don't want her to do but I never pressure her into doing anything because let's face it the woman has complete control of when and where and with whom she is going to be pleasured by.
I am confused and I find myself at a crossroads because I honestly don't know what to do moving forward.
Can anyone offer any advice that can help guide me through this?