Should I try to get my gf to cuckold me still need help messed up

[C Los Slicc]

So to make things simple my gf told me she knew about my cuckold kink one night while we were drinking since she found it looking through my reddit. She just asked me “what is cuckold?” and that she also saw bbc cuckold searches on my reddit account as well. Well I was ******* too so I told her what it was and then she asked me if I wanted to put it on the tv and of course I put it on I was real ******* I doubt I would of if I was sober. It was really hot and made me cum super hard we ended up watching that type of porn for a few days but not even a week passed something started to bother me. I could feel that she was starting to treat me as less of a man so to speak, like for example she always takes out the trash never back talks but after all that cuckold stuff she tried refusing my order to take out the trash saying “Shouldn’t a real man be taking out the trash”. Well that’s actually the comment that made me take a whole step back and start thinking about things. It wasn’t even long that we were watching the porn and she was changing already thats what scared me I guess. Like I told her to suck it too while we were watching the interracial videos and then I told her to touch herself she had her vibrator and then I saw her getting really into it forgetting to suck me and just focusing all her energy on the bbc and vibrator I guess that really turned me on but after I came it made me have a bad feeling like I got furious at her tbh. Like I remember clearly still there was a black guy on tv and she started sucking my finger sexually so basically she was getting turned on just by looking at them. The thing that really got me though truly is that she started acting like she didn’t wanna suck/have sex or maybe she was just waiting until I brought up the videos. I would ask her if she wanted to watch them to ‘stay up’ I would wait until she acted sleepy. Well with all those reasons then I told her I didn’t wanna keep doing the cuckold stuff that it was bad for our relationship that it wasn’t healthy. She didn’t push back one bit but I could tell she got a bit mad I could just see it. Now I feel like I still feel the effects like she use to randomly rub my bulge when she wanted to do it but its like I have to start it all the time now. Also before she found out about the cuckolding I had her used to being called a white slut and snowbunny while we had sex she would call herself both words but now when we do it she rarely calls herself a “white slut”. Like literally last time I did it with her I could hear her starting to say “Fuck my white pussy” but she like caught herself and said pink instead. And then I kept fucking her and fucking her and it literally felt like she didn’t orgasm until I started calling her a white slut myself. The last time she called herself that I put a regular movie with a bunch of black actors and I could see her watching the tv while we did it making faces. And after she asked me are you mad ? I asked mad at what and she made some ******* up but I knew what she was really talking about. We’re good sexually I always make her orgasm it’s just that she barely starts sex now. But even with all this the cuckold stuff is all I think about still I wanna bring up the videos again but it would be really awkward to bring it up now, and I wonder if I am truly a cuckold if I get so mad to the point that I wanna break up. Should I just never bring it up too because honestly I did not like how she was starting to act after the deed like she was losing all her respect for me as a man and starting to like black men instead

 

[7'4'whitebull]

Bro I will get her to let me fuck her while u watch and she don't now u there

 

[FreddyNo]

Hey
Anybody from London
My wife will be traveling there in December
I want new experience for her

 

[Rdonger]

You started this. Bring a black guy home and see how it goes!

 

[jaughn7070]

@C Los Slicc
You should back off the cuckold talk & videos with your girl and skip the BBC/Black porn, too. Get back to where you were before all this. It will take some time. I just don't think you are ready.

Your anger and her changing behavior toward you are warning signs. She started to treat you like a cuck and you did not like that at all. Keep it in your head as your own fantasy for now. Time will tell if she'll come around to treating you like an alpha again or not.

 

[All-In]

Good morning!

These are pretty standard emotions and thoughts in the beginning.
You fantasize about it, watch the porn, imagine your wife being a BBC slut.
You fight the battle of jerking off and feeling bad, then cant resist a couple days later.
The cat is let out of the bag in some fashion, she finds your porn, or you screw up the courage to tell her.
Most men in that situation deal with a lot of hell no, long periods of trying to convince etc.
When you have one that seems interested from the get go.......you all of a sudden have cold feet??

Sounds like you want to control everything to your liking, use her for your fantasies, and not have a partner experience
in the lifestyle, with her input and pleasure being put first.
It might be best if you leave it alone if you cant understand what your role will become if she starts dating BBC.

 

[C Los Slicc]

@jaughn7070

It’s been a while though and I guess she started treating me more ‘alpha’ again it took breaking up with her then making her crawl in the backyard naked like a dog and kissing my feet and licking my semen off the floor as a requirement to get back together with me so that she could finally treat me better. But what do you think I should do now brought it up again like 2 days ago while she was giving me head I asked her if she wanted to put something on the tv and she said “for what if its late” for context I always tell her to put the tv on for noise but this time I said “Not a movie something quiet” and I think she understood because she was just saying “well put it if you want” and I just said “No I want to hear you saying you wanna watch it” and she agreed said she wanted to put porn on the tv too so I did. Well to be precise I made her choose a video… it definitely looked like it super turned her on when she was looking through the videos she kept saying she was so wet, and then she ended up choosing one of this hispanic or white guy doing it raw in a pool with a girl. I noticed she asked to go raw when she saw it in the porn so I did and we did it but to be honest I could tell the video wasn’t turning her on that much because she was barely watching it, after it finished I asked her to put another and I swear when a bbc video would pop up I could see it in her face it would turn her on but she wouldn’t press on it I think because I was watching her… so it was taking forever for her to find a second video and then lo and behold, while she was looking through she just randomly said “What about those old videos you use to put?” She was touching herself with the vibrator and looking like she wanted to orgasm

 

[C Los Slicc]

@jaughn7070

It’s been a while though and I guess she started treating me more ‘alpha’ again it took breaking up with her then making her crawl in the backyard naked like a dog and kissing my feet and licking my semen off the floor as a requirement to get back together with me so that she could finally treat me better. But what do you think I should do now brought it up again like 2 days ago while she was giving me head I asked her if she wanted to put something on the tv and she said “for what if its late” for context I always tell her to put the tv on for noise but this time I said “Not a movie something quiet” and I think she understood because she was just saying “well put it if you want” and I just said “No I want to hear you saying you wanna watch it” and she agreed said she wanted to put porn on the tv too so I did. Well to be precise I made her choose a video… it definitely looked like it super turned her on when she was looking through the videos she kept saying she was so wet, and then she ended up choosing one of this hispanic or white guy doing it raw in a pool with a girl. I noticed she asked to go raw when she saw it in the porn so I did and we did it but to be honest I could tell the video wasn’t doing it that much for her because she was watching it but her eyes weren’t glued to the screen after it finished I asked her to put another. She was looking again and whenever a bbc video would pass I could see it in her face it would turn her on but she wouldn’t press on it I think because I was watching her… so it was taking forever for her to find a second video and then lo and behold, while she was looking through she just randomly said “What about those old videos you use to put?” She was talking about the bbc cuckold videos she found on my phone that I use to put on for her. I might have scared her because I just said “Oh so you want to watch those videos” and she was just like “No I just want you to cum those are the videos you like watching” then I responded “I’m close to cumming right now who said I need those videos to cum but you must want them on since you were asking about them” and she was just denying then said “What about those videos of us?” So I ended up putting one of our videos and she came while watching that but I didn’t I guess I wanted to watch the bbc cuckold videos together with her because ended up putting them and I only came when I saw her eyes starting to “glue” to the screen it was only for a couple seconds but that was enough to make her cum then turned it off real quick. Also something to note she always tells me to fuck her white pussy now but when we were watching the porn again it looked like it was reallly turning her on to call it white Then the day after she was looking at me with this like ‘slutty’ smile I don’t know how to describe it but she wasnt “treating me like a cuck” we even did it raw again but with no porn on the tv.

Should I keep it going? I was thinking since we have the house to ourselves this weekend I was gonna ask her if she wanted to watch porn again friday night maybe with some drinks… she’s just confusing me saying stuff then taking it back… or should I completely stop because it feels a little dangerous trying to do this type of stuff with her like I checked her insta the other day she was getting recommended this buff gym black guys stuff over and over again so that means she must be interacting with it a lot and in public theres been like 2-3 times that I caught her glancing at some black guys so am I destroying our relationship by doing this? Or does she seem down as some people say

 

[jaughn7070]

Whatever you do, avoid cuckold videos with a submissive white guy in them. That was what she thought you were into but you did not like her treating you like a sub.

I get the idea that you are both into BBC porn.
Find some porn where there is a male-female-black male (M-F-BM) theme where both guys are pleasing the gal with no submissive/cuck theme at play. See how that goes.

I get the sense the submissive cuck videos (w/BBC pleasing the girl) turn you on when watching porn (which is fine) but the reality of that is NOT fine when your girl starts to treat you like a beta cuck, so for now, just let that be your own thing you jackoff to, but don't show or share that with her.

She is into the BBC porn (per her phone/internet history) so for now, maybe you can both enjoy that together, avoiding any sub, cuck, dominant scenarios for the time being. See how that goes. Maybe get a black cock sleeve you can wear to roll play you being the BBC in the movie. See how that goes.

Whatever you do, don't get mad, don't lose your cool, and don't make her feel weird or guilty about liking BBC porn.

 

[C Los Slicc]

Whatever you do, avoid cuckold videos with a submissive white guy in them. That was what she thought you were into but you did not like her treating you like a sub.

I get the idea that you are both into BBC porn.
Find some porn where there is a male-female-black male (M-F-BM) theme where both guys are pleasing the gal with no submissive/cuck theme at play. See how that goes.

I get the sense the submissive cuck videos (w/BBC pleasing the girl) turn you on when watching porn (which is fine) but the reality of that is NOT fine when your girl starts to treat you like a beta cuck, so for now, just let that be your own thing you jackoff to, but don't show or share that with her.

She is into the BBC porn (per her phone/internet history) so for now, maybe you can both enjoy that together, avoiding any sub, cuck, dominant scenarios for the time being. See how that goes. Maybe get a black cock sleeve you can wear to roll play you being the BBC in the movie. See how that goes.

Whatever you do, don't get mad, don't lose your cool, and don't make her feel weird or guilty about liking BBC porn.

Thanks I’ll try that, and to my knowledge I don’t know if she actually likes bbc porn never found anything of her searching black just her instagram she lept getting recommended this buff black gym guys account. So no “cuckold” talk and no subby guys on the videos ? I think that might’ve been it because there was this subby white guy in all the vids we watched and I even told her some things like I use to watch this girl and imagine it was her when we were first meeting

 

[Provost41]

Whatever you do, avoid cuckold videos with a submissive white guy in them. That was what she thought you were into but you did not like her treating you like a sub.

I get the idea that you are both into BBC porn.
Find some porn where there is a male-female-black male (M-F-BM) theme where both guys are pleasing the gal with no submissive/cuck theme at play. See how that goes.

I get the sense the submissive cuck videos (w/BBC pleasing the girl) turn you on when watching porn (which is fine) but the reality of that is NOT fine when your girl starts to treat you like a beta cuck, so for now, just let that be your own thing you jackoff to, but don't show or share that with her.

She is into the BBC porn (per her phone/internet history) so for now, maybe you can both enjoy that together, avoiding any sub, cuck, dominant scenarios for the time being. See how that goes. Maybe get a black cock sleeve you can wear to roll play you being the BBC in the movie. See how that goes.

Whatever you do, don't get mad, don't lose your cool, and don't make her feel weird or guilty about liking BBC porn.

Idk why people would avoid such toxic pleasure, the sexualization of infidelity of humiliation it's just too addictive not to fully live it.

I guess the guy needs to grow a pair and stick to what's he's looking for... If must be confused because his bf cannot decide for himself.

 

[C Los Slicc]

Idk why people would avoid such toxic pleasure, the sexualization of infidelity of humiliation it's just too addictive not to fully live it.

I guess the guy needs to grow a pair and stick to what's he's looking for... If must be confused because his bf cannot decide for himself.

Sorry I like having my gf treat me with respect but tbh gonna have some drinks with her friday and ask her to choose some porn if she don’t choose any bbc videos or mention them again I guess that will be the end of it because I wont first