so that just sounds like you are gay. where is the women? financial dominance. many things can get you off in life, maybe work on a differenct kink. when you are old and infirm and have no retirement plan, a non working man with a big cock will not be there to take care of you- the idea of strong and protector will fall apart and you will be on the street. many ways to get off in this world, maybe try a different one. maybe explore these fantasies of being abused you have -where they come from, rather than pin it on a man who is black and has a large penis.Ideally it would be great to find an older black heavyset gentleman to please sexually.
Be completely committed to his gratification and controlled completely in a sexual emotional and even physical way (bondage,chastity,orgasm, even financially)type of dominance.
Pussy free, orgasm free,complete subjugation. It's a fantasy at this point but would be very hot!