As of recently i lost my health insurance so I no longer have birth control. I dont have much sex with my husband anymore and when we do . I make him wear a condom. I haven't wanted white cum in or on me for a few years. Haven't sucked his dick in years and never had a white dick in my ass. I love my husband but my body belongs to the kings " Black men are kings". I love black cum ,just like black dick it tastes the best , but i love it inside me. I love when he puts it as far as it goes and squirts inside me. Over the last few years I've seen a bull when I could. I have only seen him 1 time in the last 2 years but want to see him again. Id never put a condom on him or any bbc. The 1 time I've seen him without birth control. I told him the situation and he fucked me 3 times that day and pulled out every time. I really wanted him to cum inside me. I was literally hoping he just came in me. I'm scared because i am at a really high risk for pregnancy right now. It scares the ******* out of me. I have a family and a reputation as a good girl. How would i explain that to my ******* ? I love my husband but my bull has me telling him i love him and that combined with how he makes me feel is making not care he fills me with his seed. Should i take a break ? Should i just continue and not say anything or should i yell out breed me?