Very interesting perspectives and not here to judge. I am guessing that there is something else going on here. When you married your husband, he likely had some submissive tendencies that you either knew about or chose to ignore. Sometimes these manifest themselves in the bedroom alone and sometimes they manifest themselves in all facets of his respective life. I don't know all the cucks or submissives out there, but many are very respected outside of the bedroom and in their professions, etc. They oftentimes lack size, stamina or something else in the bedroom. I think to embrace this lifestyle in a healthy way with lengevitiy, the relationship / marriage has to be strong, at a minimum, strong outside of the bedroom. I will use myself as an example, my cuck is very successful, has a tremendous amount of confidence and outside of the bedroom, no one would ever suspect his stature inside the bedroom
Even inside the bedroom, we can have very enjoyable sexual relations. However, we both embrace his submission and we both desire to embrace his cuckold situation and my ability to engage with an alpha male in the bedroom. It does not hurt that I can have a superior cock stretching my tight white pussy compared to his very average sized cock. Our relationship has grown significantly in the bedroom given the transformation to this lifestyle and I believe that our vanilla lifestyle has grown in a similar fashion. I absolutely see him in a light that I never expected to, but I embrace that as a positive as it is additive to our life and our lifestyle versus subtractive in nature. I will say that I am different than most in that I rarely rarely rarely play without him so want him involved - emasculating, humiliating and degrading him (both the Bull and myself)adds significantly to my sexual pleasure during the sexual encounter. For me, it is as much about the psychological as the physical and this aspect does it for me
Also, I am never looking for a one night stand as I think sometimes that can take away from the cuck / hotwife relationship. Evolving the situation with a single Bull where the relationship encapsulates all three people can make for a wonderful and respectful situation, even for the cuck (as strange as that sounds
