Hello, so this I weird but I kinda what help or advice on what to do or anything. Before I start, no I’m not verified and no I won’t get verified; I don’t plan on being on here that much, but I heard about the site from a college teammate.
I am happily married to a white man and have a 3 year old. When I was in my early 20’s after a night at the bars, I met a black man outside of my apartment, and was super horny. I invited him to stay the night.
My husband and I met a year later. When I told him about my interracial experience he was disgusted at first. Then over the years he has gotten more interested, asking details (I don’t tell him it’s none of his business), and wanting to role play. He even got a fake dildo and named it Da’ron. He likes me to pose with it and suck it. I never wanted to put it in me because it’s huge. I haven’t wanted to do it since our ******* was born though.
We are in a lul lately, so I got some questions. He has been wanting to reach out and get someone (like where do you look for this, Craigslist?), to come to our house or meet at a hotel, and take pictures with me. He has said he doesn’t want me to fuck him, but maybe suck him, and let him cum on me. I wanna stimulate and rise to what my husband wants sexually but I guess I need advice with things. 1-4 are important but 5 is kind of just for me because in the end I am a 35 year old that wants to be flattered
- What should I do to meet his needs? I don’t want to fuck anyone else, but I wanna make my husband happy.
- What are somethings I can do to get into being ok with it? Is there porn to watch, or things to read?
- If I were persuaded to be “ok”with meeting someone to pose with, is there anyone out there, who would respect our wishes and just let me do what he wants?
- If there is anyone who would be willing, would you be willing to befriend my hubby, and maybe start to get a good connection with him. He has friends of color, but I’d rather not with his friends. I don’t wanna be at a cook out, and think about knowing what his friends look like naked.
- Do I still got the goods after having a kid? Sorry I’m not comfortable showing my face. The pictures are snaps and messages my husband has sent me to show you his mindset.
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Thank you for letting me voice my problem.