I would like to tell the stories of some of my wife's experiences

It was early Friday evening when we got there. There were three guys waiting in a Wal Mart parking lot,two of them Andy's brothers,and another was a friend. Andy had stopped to call his brother when we were an hour or so away,so they could meet us for a hello and a doobie before we showed up for the rest of the crowd that was waiting at Andy's mom's house.

I was wearing a short denim skirt,red tank top without a bra,and open-toed heels. What was I thinking? I was thinking about the men without considering that I would be meeting Andy's mom and several adult members of his family,including a sister-in-law who I had been warned was insanely jealous of any woman she suspected that her hubby might so much as look at. I don't know what to say in defense of my idiocy,except that my behavior was based on my perception of normalcy at the time. Andy should've known to advise me better too,but he had been gone from home for about a year and had gotten in a different groove too. On top of all the dumb things I did that were within my ability to control was the one thing that I couldn't change. I'm a pale-skinned white woman who was with a well-known and well-liked young black soldier on his first visit back home since joining the Army. It was a total fucking disaster!
 
We had checked into the motel before going to Andy's mom's to meet everybody. It was already planned for the guys to be with me part of the time so that Andy could spend sufficient time together with his family. After my introduction went so badly,that part of our plan was extended. One or more of the guys were with me for the whole time,and Andy did his best to balance his time spent with his mom and family together,while still being with his bro's and me part of the time. All in all,everything went great,but I still wish I'd done better with Andy's mom.

The sex? It started immediately after we arrived,before we went to Andy's mom's. That probably added to my defeat in her eyes. It couldn't have helped that I was glassy-eyed and smelled of sex when we met.

Live and learn.
 
Andy was about a year younger than me,and the third of four brothers. The youngest brother was about two years younger than Andy,and was the most out-going of the two who were still single. We had a few phone conversations in the weeks leading up to our vacation. That,and that he looked like a slightly younger version of Andy made me feel like I already knew him when we met.

When we got back into the car at Wal-Mart,we sat together in the back. He was already rubbing on my thigh. It's not unusual for me to be hanging on to the closest man who'll let me anyway,and I was all over him. By the time we got to the motel,we were both getting hot. We got interrupted when we got to the motel because I had to go inside to check in in my name. When I got back outside,Andy told me that the younger brother would help me take my things into the room,and that he and the other guy would be back in a little while.

As soon as we were inside the room we went at each other like newly-weds. I know I'm different with different types of men. Things just happen the way they happen. I just do whatever feels right without thinking much about what I'm doing or how I do it. It's only when I think back on things that happened that I realize how differently I react to different men. I'm more submissive with some men and pretty darn aggressive with others. I think Andy and both his brothers were kinda in the middle of the range for me. We were equally aggressive with each other.

We knew we didn't have any time to waste,so we didn't. We were kissing and tearing at each other's clothes at the same time. I was naked first and going down for his cock while both of us pulled his underwear down. His cock was rock hard and sprang up when it was freed from his underwear. I was shocked when I saw that his cock was identical to Andy's. He looked a lot like Andy,but they weren't identical. Their cocks were identical,both perfect niners and gorgeous! I've never seen a cock that was shaped more perfectly than theirs. An artist couldn't draw a more perfectly shaped cock. It curved upward,but only slightly,was uncut,and had almost enough foreskin to cover the beautifully tapered tip. It was as if their cocks were designed for easy penetration,despite their size. They could almost find their own way into me. All they had to do was get it close and it would go right on in.:)

I barely got a taste of it before he was pulling me up to lay me back onto the bed. He went into me full ******* and I was so hot for him that I couldn't get him deep enough. I was locked around him with both my arms and legs and completely lost in lust. It only took a few minutes for him to explode inside me,but it was a glorious few minutes!

I ran through the shower and was getting dressed when Andy knocked on the door.

That evening sucked,but things got better later in the night. The next day went much better,then I danced!:)
 
When Andy drove me back to the motel was when I noticed the change in his tone and manner with me. He was being bossy,telling me that his other brother and the friend who was waiting when we got there would be coming to stay the night with me,and citing the names of all the people he would introduce me to the next day,all men. I was still upset about my disastrous meeting with his mom,but I was quickly getting beyond that and remembering why I was there. I was surprised by Andy's bossiness,and also surprised that I liked it, My mind went straight to his other brother and the friend who was driving the other car when we arrived. Both were hunks in the purest sense of the word,and they were both going to be staying the night with me. Wow!

I didn't have long to think about them coming,because they pulled in beside us a minute after we got there. Andy didn't get out of the car. We said goodnight and I went to my room with two really handsome black guys.
 
I have a hard time finding the right words or way to describe some of the emotions I feel sometimes. That night as I walked to the door of that motel room with those two guys behind me and put the key into the lock,I was already extremely aroused,almost to the point of feeling faint. Sometimes that happens. It's like the weight of a situation is causing me to become orgasmic without,or before being touched. It's anticipation,but it's more than that. I've never heard or read about anyone else feeling like I'm trying to describe. It's not a subtle or shallow feeling. I've experienced emotions that I can't explain for years. It's hard to categorize as anything other than lust related but it can be unsettling. Did I say that I'm quirky? I am.
 
I don't remember much about what I was thinking after we got inside the motel room. I noticed the physical difference between the friend who wasn't related verses Andy's other brother. He was a really big guy. I had noticed how big he looked sitting in the driver's seat of his car the first time I saw him. Height and size isn't always an indication of the size of a man's cock,but his matched his size. He was much bigger hung than Andy or his brothers. I can't remember if there was anybody in my crew who was that big at that time,but I soon discovered that there were several more there who were.

I had been glad to see two beds in my room,even though I paid for a single. They were both used that night,and every night while we were there. The bigger guy took me first. Then,they were on and off me into the night. I don't remember both of them being on the bed with me at once,but I do remember that only a second passed each time one left my bed before the other replaced him. I was dizzy with lust when we started and I got more intense after they each got their first nut. There's something about that whorish feeling of having multiple men's cum mixing together inside me that propels me to the next level. There are aspects of being a whore that are unique. In my view,that's one of the the unique pleasures that I enjoy that defines me. There's no substitute for that feeling,no way to duplicate it. If you've never felt it,you might not even give it a thought. Most probably don't. Once I experienced it,I've always wanted to feel it again and again. Some women who are whores are coincidental whores or whores as a convenience for men. I'm an intentional whore,because I love being a whore. It's all fine and good that men enjoy using me,but I'm always going to get mine too.

We spent most of Saturday driving all over and meeting so many men that I couldn't remember half of their names if my life had depended on it. All were above-average looking,and some were so gorgeous that my knees got weak when they took my hand. My hubby understates how much I get excited over really good-looking men. I'm not willing to tolerate an asshole because he looks good,but if a guy is decent and nice,and looks really good to me,I'm conquered! What can I say? It's the truth.

Saturday night,I danced butt-naked on stage in front hundreds of men.:)
 
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Meeting all of those men Saturday blew me away. Their looks and personalities,and the way most of them reacted to me was intoxicating. It's not that my regular crew was chopped liver. It was the newness of the whole thing. Andy was telling everybody that I would be in the amateur strip contest and encouraging them to come to support me. They all said that they would be there and most,if not all of them showed up. I had my own cheering squad that filled every table and bar seat all the way down one side of the stage and around to the front. There's no doubt in my mind that having them there helped me to do better than I otherwise would've. I shook off my nervousness pretty quick and put everything I had into showing my stuff. We did three songs each set and the finalists did three sets. It was fantastic! I didn't have to wait for the judges to call it for me. The volume of the applause and the length of time that everybody was clapping and yelling told me for sure that I had won. I was butt naked and sweating my ass off like I did on the octagon table in Curt's living room,but I was in a real strip club with hundreds of strangers applauding. What a rush!:)
 
To understand what that vacation was like from my perspective,a person has to understand that I wasn't in a normal or average mood after that Saturday. The effect that all those men had on me,then my success dancing on that stage put me over the top. My system was peaked! I was fueled on hormones and adrenaline,and I felt virtually invincible. Everything was going my way and I had never felt so desirable. I was on a roll!

It was an exciting adventure for me. In a sense,it was my first time out in the world as a full-grown woman. I realize that this might sound strange to some,but I lived a sheltered life at Curt's. Even though I was legally an adult and married when we moved there,I was still very young. I was broke in there. My life as a groupie was very sex-centric,but I was sheltered from most things in the world. I was safe there. I belonged there. It was my turf. I was like a spoiled little queen who was literally protected from everything. There was risk in going out into the world,risk of failure or rejection,either of which would've been very hard for me. As it happened,the risk paid off beyond anything I expected or could have imagined. I was walking on air! There wasn't one thing that made it wonderful for me. It was everything as a whole,the men,the sex,my success,and the whole mood.:)
 
To understand what that vacation was like from my perspective,a person has to understand that I wasn't in a normal or average mood after that Saturday. The effect that all those men had on me,then my success dancing on that stage put me over the top. My system was peaked! I was fueled on hormones and adrenaline,and I felt virtually invincible. Everything was going my way and I had never felt so desirable. I was on a roll!

It was an exciting adventure for me. In a sense,it was my first time out in the world as a full-grown woman. I realize that this might sound strange to some,but I lived a sheltered life at Curt's. Even though I was legally an adult and married when we moved there,I was still very young. I was broke in there. My life as a groupie was very sex-centric,but I was sheltered from most things in the world. I was safe there. I belonged there. It was my turf. I was like a spoiled little queen who was literally protected from everything. There was risk in going out into the world,risk of failure or rejection,either of which would've been very hard for me. As it happened,the risk paid off beyond anything I expected or could have imagined. I was walking on air! There wasn't one thing that made it wonderful for me. It was everything as a whole,the men,the sex,my success,and the whole mood.:)
I am really enjoying this blog, please continue. waiting between your post is almost un-bearable
 
I am really enjoying this blog, please continue. waiting between your post is almost un-bearable
Thank you! I'm flattered,and I'm sorry that it's taking me so long. There's been a lot going on with us lately.

When we left the strip club we went to a house where there was a big party in progress. It was on the edge of town and there was a huge yard. There were cars parked all over the yard and on both sides of the road near the house. Andy explained that he only needed to make a polite appearance there,and that we wouldn't be there for very long. Andy introduced me to more people,a few of them women that time. Several were more of his cousins. I knew I was getting some critical attention from some of the women,but they were all polite. I don't know how much me being the only white woman there had anything to do with their scrutiny. Maybe not much or none. I think women are always leery of a new woman. They probably liked me better knowing that I wouldn't be there for long.

Andy was talking about plans for Sunday,then the following week on the way to the motel. It was then that I started realizing how many of those guys there were. Holy crap! Andy was going on and on about how I had made such a splash with all the men,and my head was spinning. I was pleased,excited,stimulated,and almost overwhelmed by the weight of the whole thing. I don't know what makes me the way I am about being challenged,but I get really turned on when I feel like I'm in over my head. Maybe I am really crazy.
 
I had asked Andy if we could spend that night together at the motel. It was a special night for me. Andy and I were masquerading as a couple,but we really were close. He was really my guy,one of my crew. He wasn't voyeuristic like my hubby or Curt,so it wasn't like he was getting a lot for himself from his efforts. He was showing off a little,so hopefully I afforded him a bit of prestige. He knew me well enough to know how much I enjoy sex. I think he was doing it mostly for me and his homies,treating me to them and them to me,kind of connecting his two worlds.

Andy and I wrecked the bed that night,like we had done dozens of times before,then we fell asleep,exhausted.

I'm usually mellow in the morning and get more lively as the day progresses. That next morning was an exception. The clock radio alarm went off playing a song that prompted me to get straight up and start dancing. I was instantly wide awake and excited about the day and my prospects for connecting with some of the hottest studs on the planet. Andy slowly turned onto his back and propped himself up onto some pillows and laid back watching me as I continued to dance through the next song,smiling.
 
Wow. Wild day today. I might get to recent events sometime later. It's been mostly chaos and crisis for us lately,but there are some bright spots.;)

I'm trying to concentrate the small amount of time I'm getting to write on finishing describing my vacation with Andy.

I can close my eyes now and remember how I felt that Sunday morning. I was extremely excited and hot for those guys. I felt slightly overwhelmed ,yet confident that I was capable of handling it,if that makes any sense. Knowing how many guys I'd met,and assuming from their reactions and comments that all of them wanted a go at my body was what made it a challenge. No numbers were ever mentioned between Andy and me. Not before,during or after. I honestly never counted,but I'll admit that I wouldn't reveal the number if I had. I'll just say that it was far more than I would've guessed or expected. Given that they were all so fine,that was a very good thing,but Whew!

I can remember the weekends more clearly than the weekdays because of the events. I especially enjoyed the big group breakfasts we had at a cozy family restaurant and at IHOP. I just now had this vision of myself at the table with those guys and thought that my demeanor could have been compared to an old miser looking at his pile of money as I looked around at all of those fine black men. Mine,all mine! I was a greedy little slut. I've been told more than once that I'm territorial. I denied it,but maybe it's true. Territorial and greedy could be interpreted to be the same I think.

We went to a nice family owned restaurant the first Sunday morning for breakfast. I was wearing one of my usual "dressed up" outfits,denim mini-skirt,showoff tank top,bra-less of course,and high-heeled sandals. I was there for the men and I intended for them to know it.

Everybody was in a great mood that morning and there was plenty of clowning around during breakfast. When breakfast was winding down and everybody was getting ready to leave,one of Andy's cousins who could've passed for another brother handed me a key ring and told me he wanted me to drive. I was immediately confused. I looked at Andy and he just nodded. I'm like,,,,I don't know my way around here,and how do you know I can drive? He's like,,,Andy,she can drive can't she? Sure. OK.....???

I concluded that I was going with him,which was perfectly OK with me,but I still didn't get why he wanted me to drive.

When we were out of earshot of the other people and close to his car,one of those pretty Firebirds that had the huge decal that covered the whole front of the car,he told me why he wanted me to drive. He said that he wanted my fine ass to be on the driver's seat of his car,so that he could always remember that I had sat in that seat every time he got in it. That was one of the corniest compliments I ever got or ever heard,but it was sweet,well-intended,and effective. I melted. I'm like that. I crave that sort of thing and it doesn't take much to really move me. I asked why he wouldn't want me in his passenger seat,and he said that he didn't sit over there often,but that I could sit there later if I wanted. He told me where to turn and I drove directly to the motel.
 
I've never been more more motivated or intent on pleasing men than I was with those guys for several very good reasons. I was so impressed by them that I felt that I had to impress them equally. They deserved that. Besides,when you love something as much as I love to fuck,you're expected to be good at it. If a man doesn't like my cooking,I'm disappointed,but I'll get over it. I can live with that,but if I knew any man ever considered me a lousy fuck,I would want to crawl into a hole and die. I'm aware that chemistry varies with each individual,and sex is naturally better with some than others,but still........

I had hit it just right with my dancing and brought the house down. There were comments,as there always are about if or whether I could move like that in bed and what the results might be if I could. I can,and the fact that men always make that connection lets me know that my effort's are worthwhile,because that's exactly what I want them to do. Enticing men to want sex with me has been at the top of my priorities in life since my teens. My hubby always says it comes natural for me. Maybe,to some extent,but I put a lot of effort into it too. I try very hard to be as seductive as I possibly can when I need to be.

I knew from some of the things the guys said that Andy had really talked me up too. That didn't surprise me. Andy had me up on a pedestal. If I hadn't already been married,he and I might have really been a couple.

Everybody's expectations were high,mine and the men's. I felt some pressure because of that,but not enough for it to be a problem. I might have had a moment of self-doubt now and then,but overall,I was pretty confident that everything would continue to go good and that it would all be fantastic,and it was.:)

That Sunday was when things really got going.

It was going to be great anyway,but after the compliment about wanting my fine ass in the driver's seat of his car,Cousin got some of the most motivated pussy imaginable put on him. I gave it everything I had to relieve him of every drop of cum in his body and leave him limp for long enough that he wouldn't just remember my ass being in his car seat,but more importantly from my point of view,up on his cock!

It was early afternoon when we finished and I learned that it had been prearranged for us to meet some other guys at somebody's apartment. I was passed from one to another,one or two guys at a time for the next two weeks,night and day. Some of it's a little blurry in my memory for several reasons. I was dizzy with lust to begin with,and the hours when I was awake and those when I slept couldn't have been more irregular. There's no way I could chronicle the time in the order it happened,but I can remember some of the hottest events very vividly. I'll try to write about some of that next,but I'm not promising to get it in the order that it happened.
 
I'm being urged to include more of what I know about men's cock sizes in what I'm writing. I have reasons for not doing it more than I have. One of those reasons is that I haven't known exactly how big many men's cocks were. I know about a few,enough to make comparative guesses about other's,and that's what I'm being asked to do.

The reason that subject came up today was because of what happened that Sunday afternoon. Although it was never stated as such,or really implied that it was what it was,I was put to a test that afternoon. It could have came as close as anything could to shaking my confidence,but it ended up having the opposite effect. I have to be careful not to complicate this. It's fairly simple,but it seems a little bit difficult to explain. Part of my dance routine is a "Bitch on a high horse". It's a altered version of the "Little Vixen" personality that I worked out early on in my dancing for the guys at Curt's. It was originally a defensive front to conceal some insecurities that I might have had. :unsure:She's a cocky little bitch,and I think she made some of those guys question whether or not she was all that she was cracked up to be. I never let on like I knew anything was up. What happened was extremely hot,and I didn't know for sure,but I suspected that some of the guys conspired to put me to a test.

OK,this is kinda hard for me. Just for reference. I know a few men's cock sizes. Victor,the first black man I was with in Georgia was closer to fourteen inches than to thirteen,and as thick as my forearm. It took several attempts for me to take it all,but I eventually did. That was a huge turn on and a confidence builder for me,but it doesn't mean that I can just spread my pussy and take over a foot of cock as easy as that. Victor was a gentle and patient man,I was extremely hot for him,and it was still very hard to take all of it.

I know a few more,but since I'm writing about my time with Andy,I'll use him for another reference. Andy's cock was almost exactly nine inches long,and yes,I did measure it. Andy's cock was mine to enjoy for a relatively long period of time,and I took it at every opportunity. The size,shape,and everything about it was as perfect as a cock could be for me.

That Sunday afternoon after Andy's cousin and I finished,I sat in the passenger seat of his car and he drove us to an apartment where there were several guys hanging out. I think I had been introduced to all of them. I think all of them had been at the club when I danced,but I can't be sure. I had met too many men in the past two days to know one from the other. All I knew was that they all looked very good to me and that I was happy to be there and in the situation I was in. I wouldn't have traded places with any woman in the world! Andy had asked me before we left the motel that morning before breakfast if I had any doubts or last thoughts about any of the guys I had met or what I was going to do. I didn't have to think about it for a second. I told him no. I was ready.

Within a half hour after we got there,everybody left,including the cousin who brought me there,leaving me there with two men. They were among the oldest of the guys I had met,mid to late twenties. The were both tall. One was big built,the other more slender. They were both handsome men,but obviously not related to Andy,so not quite as fine as the ones who were.;) I was admittedly biased toward Andy's brothers and cousins because of their resemblance to Andy,but they really were very good-looking men. The other guys were too though. What am I saying? They were all out hunks! It was amazing! There wasn't a homely or slight-hung guy in the whole group! Those men were all pussy-drooling,pantie-soaking,knee-weakening fine!

I was concentrating on maintaining my composure and making every move with as much finesse as I could muster,because it was so important to me to have all those men like me and be impressed with me. Everything had gone great so far,but nothing was guaranteed,not even the next minute. It was like,"Dorothy,you're not in Kansas anymore."

I didn't need a cue to know it was "game on." That was consistent for the entire two weeks. Every time it was "time",I knew. Up to that point it had been younger guys,one on one,even the night when there were two of them in the room with me all night long. Something told me that time was going to be different.

The men in cliques like that know virtually everything about each other,and there's always a pecking order. The rest of those guys had all but vanished in a few minutes. I was suddenly sitting there with two guys who were at the top of the pecking order. It was obviously a set-up,but I was used to set-ups. I expected it,and I actually liked the expedience in the right situation. That one looked and felt like a good situation,but I had a feeling in the first minutes that there was something more happening there than what was immediately apparent to me.

I was sitting on the couch next to the heavier guy. He put his hand on my thigh,and when I turned toward him,he pulled me close with his arm that was already on the back of the couch behind me and kissed me. I was totally in favor of that move,and responded by taking his tongue into my mouth with greedy gratitude. I saw the slimmer guy go past us as we were kissing. I heard the bolt lock,then the chain rattle as he locked the door. Only seconds later,his hand was under my skirt. I felt his long fingers slip beside,then behind my panties and into my eager pussy. It was so over the top erotic for me that I felt myself shuddering under a hard orgasm only a couple of minutes after they started in on me. I would've been gushing if I was in the same situation with two guys from my own crew who I was familiar with. Having those gorgeous men who were virtual strangers going at me like that was a system overload for me. Composure? Are you kidding?

Minutes later,I felt a a strong hand on my shoulder and another on the back of my waist,steadying me as I was guided through the door into a cramped bedroom. It was a normal size apartment bedroom with a huge king-size poster bed in it that took up almost all of the space,leaving barely enough room to stand beside the bed. I was shaky,but still making my best effort to act with some finesse. I could tell that they wanted to watch me undress,so I tried to take my clothes off with some semblance of seductiveness. I was rattled,not nervous or afraid,just so incredibly horny that I lost it.

The heavier guy tossed the covers back and I climbed onto the bed slowly as they watched,having regained control of my body enough to move with some agility. I loved the way they were looking at me. They both stood still,watching me until I laid back in the middle of the bed,trying to display myself as sexily as I could. They were both wearing t shirts and shorts. They undressed simultaneously in seconds,then positioned themselves on either side of me. I knew why I had gotten that feeling at the beginning when I saw their cocks. Both of them were semi-erect and both were huge hung! Not just big,but truly huge,at least eleven inches,maybe more.

I had had a few cocks that were that big,and one that was bigger. Several guys who were that big came and went in my crew at Curt's during the time I was there. I had never had two that big at the same time,but I was certainly ready for it. I knew by those two guys manner that I didn't have to worry about them being too rough with me. I didn't really know them,but they had already shown me that they were skilled and considerate lovers. There was no place on earth that I would've rather been than exactly where I was.

I silently concluded that I had been set up with two of the biggest hung studs in the group early in my visit as a test,probably because of my cockiness during my dance routine. It was a test I could pass with flying colors. I knew I could ace that test and ask to be tested again!:blackgreedy:

They picked up where they had left off when we left the couch,the heavier guy kissing me and the slender guy working on my pussy. He held my legs wide apart and went down on me with his mouth and made me cum hard again in a very short time. Then he pulled me down to the center of the bed and mounted me in missionary. His cock went all the way in much easier than I expected because I was so hot and wet. I remember how good I felt then,my back side pinned firmly to the bed,stuffed completely full with cock,and feeling his weight on me. I couldn't see the heavier guy at that moment,but I could feel his body touching my shoulder. I remember thinking about him being just as big as the one who was inside me,and that he would be inside me soon too. I knew that it was just beginning,and that the two of them would likely fuck me for hours. I remember thinking that it doesn't get any better than it was for me at that moment.
 
I was practically ******* with lust during much of that encounter,feeling and responding physically,but disoriented. I remember being fully aware,seeing and hearing normally at a point I think was close to when they finished. I was on my knees near one side of the bed. The slender man was standing next to the bed holding the side of my face in his hand and kissing me and the heavier man was going deep inside me from behind. Mostly what I remember about being with the two of them besides their cocks being enormous is that they kissed me a lot and that I loved the way they looked at me. It was like they were really impressed I thought,and that made me feel good.:)

They both fucked me again before I left,but not at the same time.
 
I had only been out of the shower for a minute or two when the phone rang. I was surprised when the call was for me. It was Andy calling to tell me that someone could come to pick me up when I was ready to go. I said that I was ready,and another of Andy's cousins was there a short time later. We had met before I danced,and he was one of the guys who was leading the cheering for me when I danced,keeping the others going.

I was glad when he asked me if I was hungry,because I was. I also felt like I needed a little time to recharge.

I was asked if I was surprised about the way things happened on our vacation,and I've tried to remember how I felt clearly enough to answer that question. I still have to stick to my first answer. I was surprised in the first two days by the number of guys who Andy was tight with,and by the fact that all of them were so fine. I've considered whether or not I was surprised by the pace that things started happening at on Sunday. I really wasn't,at first. I knew it would be like that because there were so many of them. As my dear hubby likes to say,that wasn't my first rodeo. By that time things had settled down with my regular crew at Curt's to the point that guys weren't coming at me at such a torrid pace anymore,but there had been times when it seemed to be raining cocks there. I knew what it could be like,but there was a surprise. There was one difference between what happened there and anything that had happened at Curt's. The fact that I was only going to be there for two weeks made a big difference,one that surprised and challenged me.

I know I'm rambling from one thing to another and all over the place here. I want to get some of my thoughts down to better explain myself. I know I'm not doing it in an organized way. It's been a long day.

I've been around guys a lot and I know how they talk about women sometimes. Some guys have been so used to me being around that they say everything just the same as if I was another guy. I always want to know what guys say about me. It's probably not the smartest thing for me to do because if I knew somebody said something bad or negative that I would have a hard time with it. I'm far more sensitive than I wish I was. Sometimes guys tell me things about what other men say about me on their own,and sometimes I ask them. When they tell me good things that other guys said about me,it motivates me to try even harder. I was getting good feedback from Andy's homies very early on and for the whole time we were there. That was just one more ingredient in a whole mix of things that gave me momentum while I was there. I was really wild!

Those guy's jobs ranged from nine to fivers,to fast food workers and managers,to unemployed,already enlisted in the military and waiting to ship out,and some things in between. Some of them took days off to be with Andy while he was there. Starting that first Sunday,we kept some crazy hours.
 
We drove to a fast food place that was only a few blocks from that apartment. He parked near he back door and offered to bring some food for me,saying that he needed to do something that would only take a few minutes. He was a year or two older than Andy,and he was the manager of that restaurant. He looked more like Andy than Andy's oldest brother did. I liked him a lot. We had an eye contact thing going from the first time we saw each other. We were saying more to each other than the words we spoke.

He said something as he was getting back into the car. I can't remember his exact words,and I don't want to just throw out something. It was a reference to my activity over the previous hours that was cute,kind of complimentary in an off-handed way. I wish I could remember what he said,but I can't. I remember that I could feel myself blushing. That was unusual. I don't blush easily. I was used to men telling me that I was unusual. I learned that what they usually mean is that I'm more direct than average. What he said was similar to that except that it was specifically about those guys where he picked me up. He knew what the situation was and obviously knew that it had gone well.

The motel was close,so I waited until we were in my room to eat. He made it known that he had the rest of the day off and was in no hurry. When I finished eating,I went into the bathroom and washed up,then put on a fresh tank top and thongs for him and didn't wear anything else. We enjoyed hanging out,talking,and playing. We took our time,because we both wanted to and we could. He enjoyed watching me and I enjoyed strutting my stuff for him. That was a win/win deal,and of course we eventually fucked.
 
I'm having a very hard time figuring out how to proceed from that Sunday,because of the pace that things happened and the crazy hours we kept. It was sex and more sex,a few hours of sleep with no regard to whether it was night or day,more sex,and on and on. It's really hard to describe what was a genuinely crazy string of events in a coherent enough way to expect anybody to follow it. How many people realize how hard we partied in those days? There's an element of truth in that phrase,"If you remember all of it,then you really weren't there."

I'm really trying. I'm sorry,but I'm having a very hard time with it.
 
I'm having a very hard time figuring out how to proceed from that Sunday,because of the pace that things happened and the crazy hours we kept. It was sex and more sex,a few hours of sleep with no regard to whether it was night or day,more sex,and on and on. It's really hard to describe what was a genuinely crazy string of events in a coherent enough way to expect anybody to follow it. How many people realize how hard we partied in those days? There's an element of truth in that phrase,"If you remember all of it,then you really weren't there."

I'm really trying. I'm sorry,but I'm having a very hard time with it.
I'm having a very hard time figuring out how to proceed from that Sunday,because of the pace that things happened and the crazy hours we kept. It was sex and more sex,a few hours of sleep with no regard to whether it was night or day,more sex,and on and on. It's really hard to describe what was a genuinely crazy string of events in a coherent enough way to expect anybody to follow it. How many people realize how hard we partied in those days? There's an element of truth in that phrase,"If you remember all of it,then you really weren't there."

I'm really trying. I'm sorry,but I'm having a very hard time with it.
just remeber as best you can
 
I was going to try to get away with blaming my lack of clear memory of some of the time we were there on the wild hours and an insufficient amount of sleep. That was a significant part of it,but there's more. To best explain what I can remember requires an explanation,or better an admission about something that's very personal and sometimes concerning and sensitive.

I'm hyper-sexual sometimes. It's not a permanent and constant condition. If it was,I wouldn't have been able to function for long periods of time with only normal amounts of sex,as I have.

Sometimes my sexual energy can keep me going way past the point when I'm clearly conscious of everything that's happening. Extremely hot sex at a torrid pace,like what started that Sunday can sometimes carry me to another level that's hard for me to explain. I tried to explain it when I was writing about going into the motel room with Andy's cousin and that other hot guy following behind me. It can last for minutes,through all or part of a sexual encounter,or sometimes it can persist for days at a time,almost constant.
 
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