jakovazor2
Male
Hello,
I'm not sure if i'm in the good place to speak about that, i don't want to be intolerant or something, what i will say is 100% truth :
PRESENTATION
NOW HERE IS MY STORY :
AT THE SAME TIME :
And now, to cum, i ALWAYS think about this blonde girl, i close my eyes when i fuck a girl, and i think about this blonde, fucked by alot of black mens, full of cum, me sloppy second ...
Guys i'm totally hooked, i never seen a white dick in a porn with a girl, since my 15 years old, it's desguisting for me (however i can jack off with a white guy fucking a shemale, for me it's ok...It's like in my fucked brain a white guy can't fuck a white girl anymore but is allowed to fuck a shemale....).
I think about this lifestyle everyday, when i encounter a girl i always try to know (with some skilled questions) if she like black man or if she ever get fucked by a black man.
it's very important for me, this lifestyle is devouring my brain, i love it so much you can't even imagine...I mean, i guess you can because you are into...
SO
-has i said, i'm 30, i'm not ugly, but i can't cum without imagining my girlfriends fucked by a black OR i think always about my ex blonde who was BBC whore, and i cum.
-i always try to know if my girlfriend was a bbc whore before me.
The reason of my post here, no offense guys, but :
BUT for me, it's like a *******, a desease, i know it's not normal (we can't lie guys, licking the seed of a black man out of a pussy is not normal) and i want to clean my brain.
I want to be able to cum with a sexy girl without the need of imagining her fucked by black mens.
I want to have a normal life.
Because has i said this is like a *******, it's a pure pleasure but it's destroyin my life : my relationships with girls; my libido...Sometimes i don't even cum with my girlfriend and when i go back home, i can cum in 10mins watching IR cuckold porn...I need to change.
EDIT : sorry i missclicked
So please do you have any advice? does some guys here did a 180 degree turn over? What shall i do to clean my brain? I respect all guys who love it (i'm into it too since my 14, at 100%) but i need to move out, it's not the way of life i want if i think seriously without excitation....
I need help and advice to be normal please.
thanks for the time.
I'm not sure if i'm in the good place to speak about that, i don't want to be intolerant or something, what i will say is 100% truth :
PRESENTATION
first of all, i'm french so, sorry if my english is not perfect.
i've 30 years old.
i'm 1.88 and 100kg, i do alot of musculation, for most of girls i look like "alpha".
my penis is 19cm (and pretty large, most girls i had also tell that i have a "black dick" no joke).
So that's for the presentation, the idea is that i really look like alpha male...
NOW HERE IS MY STORY :
Since my 14 i started to masturbate on 2 things => cuckold IR and shemales.
this is my 2 addictions, the proportion is 70% cuckold and 30% shemales.
i'm totally hooked guys, i tryed to have shemale girlfriend (at tinder) at multiples times. I saw them (but they were ugly in face to face).
i fucked 2 shemales ******* in my life (while i was in couple...i know i'm bad, but i used condom of course) and i LOVED IT. first time at 26 years, the last time at 28 years.
AT THE SAME TIME :
With girls, i had alot girlfriends in my life. The first time we fuck is ok, but really really fast i need to imagine that she is a black owned slut to cum, or it's impossible.
I can fuck a girl like 2 hours without cuming if i not think about black dicks...
I had a blonde girlfirend at 24 years old, not the most sexy (not bad), but she was a black cock slut (i was the first white she fucked), i let you imagine how it was in my head when i fucked her...
And now, to cum, i ALWAYS think about this blonde girl, i close my eyes when i fuck a girl, and i think about this blonde, fucked by alot of black mens, full of cum, me sloppy second ...
Guys i'm totally hooked, i never seen a white dick in a porn with a girl, since my 15 years old, it's desguisting for me (however i can jack off with a white guy fucking a shemale, for me it's ok...It's like in my fucked brain a white guy can't fuck a white girl anymore but is allowed to fuck a shemale....).
I think about this lifestyle everyday, when i encounter a girl i always try to know (with some skilled questions) if she like black man or if she ever get fucked by a black man.
it's very important for me, this lifestyle is devouring my brain, i love it so much you can't even imagine...I mean, i guess you can because you are into...
SO
-has i said, i'm 30, i'm not ugly, but i can't cum without imagining my girlfriends fucked by a black OR i think always about my ex blonde who was BBC whore, and i cum.
-i always try to know if my girlfriend was a bbc whore before me.
The reason of my post here, no offense guys, but :
I HATE IT
I mean, of course i love it, of course i would love to be with a sexy white blonde queen of spades who cheats me with all the blacks of the city, i want to raise mixed childs, i want [...] Of course i love this fetish.BUT for me, it's like a *******, a desease, i know it's not normal (we can't lie guys, licking the seed of a black man out of a pussy is not normal) and i want to clean my brain.
I want to be able to cum with a sexy girl without the need of imagining her fucked by black mens.
I want to have a normal life.
Because has i said this is like a *******, it's a pure pleasure but it's destroyin my life : my relationships with girls; my libido...Sometimes i don't even cum with my girlfriend and when i go back home, i can cum in 10mins watching IR cuckold porn...I need to change.
EDIT : sorry i missclicked
So please do you have any advice? does some guys here did a 180 degree turn over? What shall i do to clean my brain? I respect all guys who love it (i'm into it too since my 14, at 100%) but i need to move out, it's not the way of life i want if i think seriously without excitation....
I need help and advice to be normal please.
thanks for the time.
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