I can relate.. white wannbe cuckold husband living in NJ area.. Ever since I started fantasizing about my white wife and this lifestyle I no longer find myself looking at my wife or other white women with lust to have sex with myself, I can only picture them sexually with a black man, also when I am just jerking off to porn (interracial only of course) to cum, I find myself edging and doing this daily for a few weeks at a time. Whenever I can't do it any longer and have to cum, I always make sure I kneel naked and cum never any other way, feel it shows me accepting this as normal in some sort of way in my mind. Can anyone relate in anyway at all?understand this? I also as of late been wanting to wear thigh high stockings,not sure why, as I j/o but haven't as of yet.