So, I am a cuckold. Me and my girlfriend have been in the lifestyle for seven years and for the last five years, she has been completely black only. I am in permanent chastity, with regular lock ups for cleaning and health checks. But I am not allowed to have sex.
I love it and I support her fully. I even paid for her QOS tattoo. I am embracing my role as cuck, one hundred percent.
However, the last year or so, I feel like it's affecting our relationship outside the bedroom as well. Sometimes when we have plans together, one of her bulls might text her, and she just drops everything and goes over to him. I feel like she is becoming more and more submissive towards black men in general and not just her usual bulls. It's like she can't say no, because she feels like it's her duty to please them. This made me a bit concerned and I spoke to her about it, but she said she's in control and she likes that dynamic.
But I still feel like it's interfering with our relationship. I respect that she wants sex with black men and I love that, but I still want our relationship to be filled with love and in order to have that, you need to prioritize it. I have told her so, and she says she agrees, but then one of her bulls calls and it's like she just forgets it.
Last weekend, we had a romantic evening planned on the Friday and a dinner with friends on Saturday. She cancelled our romantic evening to have sex with her bull and she was late to the dinner just because she got an invite from a complete stranger who wanted to see her in the afternoon.
I am uncertain how to deal with this. I'd like to discuss it further and try to set some boundaries. But there's also a part of me that tells me I shouldn't be questioning her. She is my Queen and she is in charge, that's the deal we agreed to. And as a white cuck, I also feel like I don't want to stand in the way of these black men. Like it's not my place. I feel like it's part of my role to step aside and be respectful to them. And I am truly grateful that they give her what I can't. And I am incredibly proud of her. But I guess I'd just like to find some sort of balance.