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I'm new to this site, so sorry if my question is off topic. My post may be very long, but I would reallyappreciate it if you take the time to read it. I will try to write story about what is destroying my life. Namely, it is cuckold fantasies and watch much cuckold porn videos.
I have been watching porn since I was 13. Now I`m 21. When I was 15 or 16 years old, I had story that I wanted my girlfriend had sex by several men. Later, this story developed into a cuckold porn fantasy.
I began to think that other men are more attractive to my girlfriend than me. I even watch much men in my life and imagined story how well they have sex with my girlfriend. I would watch much video of cuckold pornand then imagined the events real that took place on my girlfriend.
I did not attach much importance to these stories, since I was still much young. But then a much terrible story happened to me. My first sex was real awful! I was so nervous that I lost my erection and sex went really bad. I was 17 years old. Nothing worked out with that girl. And I was left alone again with my watchmuch video cuckold porn. I was just broken.
I can not even think about a normal real relationship and marriage. I only have a model of behavior in my head like in cuckold video. I can not meet a girl and offer her like video as in cuckold porn and real cuckoldlifestyle.
I know that people have much sex fantasies, such as foot fetish, voyeurism or the smell of women's panties, like in Japan, for example. But I find them so much harmless compared to cuckolds. The story of a realcuckold just kills me.
I feel powerless, humiliated and stupid. All these feelings real lead me to hate myself and feel worthless as a man. How can I think about a real girl with such story? If all I can think that she is being fucked by someone else. To relax, I watch much cuckold porn.
I come home in the evening and turn on site with much cuckold porn videos. I sit alone in my car in some parking lot and watch cuckold porn videos.
My friends don't know about my story. They see that I have problems with girls and that is it. They alsowatch site with porn videos, but none of them watch much cuckold story like me. I never save video site so no one can know what I`m real watch. I can not share my preferences with anyone. Therefore, I am writing my story here.
Help me please. What can I do? Stop watch cuckold video? How can I become a «normal» person who does not think about much weird things that real hurt me? I am afraid to share this information and my storywith someone. Watching cuckold video ruins my sex life and life in general.
A few words about me
I`m a so much shy guy. I can communicate with girls, I do not story any problems in principle. I had several relationships with much girls. I met with them for drinks, to have fun in the club and so on. But it did not end well because I am too shy to just have sex story with girls. After all the failed stories, I would come home and watch much site with cuckold porn.I have been watching porn since I was 13. Now I`m 21. When I was 15 or 16 years old, I had story that I wanted my girlfriend had sex by several men. Later, this story developed into a cuckold porn fantasy.
I began to think that other men are more attractive to my girlfriend than me. I even watch much men in my life and imagined story how well they have sex with my girlfriend. I would watch much video of cuckold pornand then imagined the events real that took place on my girlfriend.
I did not attach much importance to these stories, since I was still much young. But then a much terrible story happened to me. My first sex was real awful! I was so nervous that I lost my erection and sex went really bad. I was 17 years old. Nothing worked out with that girl. And I was left alone again with my watchmuch video cuckold porn. I was just broken.
What story with video now
I turned into a guy who was humiliated after the first bad story in sex. I did not try to have sex with any other girl in real afterwards.I can not even think about a normal real relationship and marriage. I only have a model of behavior in my head like in cuckold video. I can not meet a girl and offer her like video as in cuckold porn and real cuckoldlifestyle.
I know that people have much sex fantasies, such as foot fetish, voyeurism or the smell of women's panties, like in Japan, for example. But I find them so much harmless compared to cuckolds. The story of a realcuckold just kills me.
I feel powerless, humiliated and stupid. All these feelings real lead me to hate myself and feel worthless as a man. How can I think about a real girl with such story? If all I can think that she is being fucked by someone else. To relax, I watch much cuckold porn.
I come home in the evening and turn on site with much cuckold porn videos. I sit alone in my car in some parking lot and watch cuckold porn videos.
My friends don't know about my story. They see that I have problems with girls and that is it. They alsowatch site with porn videos, but none of them watch much cuckold story like me. I never save video site so no one can know what I`m real watch. I can not share my preferences with anyone. Therefore, I am writing my story here.
Help me please. What can I do? Stop watch cuckold video? How can I become a «normal» person who does not think about much weird things that real hurt me? I am afraid to share this information and my storywith someone. Watching cuckold video ruins my sex life and life in general.