Wow. That is a similar experience I had. The first times she had been fucked by a Bull she let me TRY to fuck her when she came home. She was weet but so mutch bigger inside that I realy goth a mindblowing experience of my shortcoming in bed.
Even do she also befor she cuckolded me always gave mesage that she diddent want our sex to last long and that she only orgasme when I licked her, was it realy a turning point when she halfway in my "fucking" asked me if I was inside or if I just was pushing my Dick between her tighs. Then I already had been inside her like 5 minutes. We ended that fucking with her on topp with me doing cleanupp and wanking of beneet her.
We tryed later to let me fuck her som few times more. But last Dessember she and her Bull sat down with me and HE told me that Im not gonna fuck my Wife any more. But that she stil wil let me lick her if Im keep being a good boy and obidient Cuckold who show them bouth propper respect.
After that they sendt me to our guestroom and I literly cryed for an our when he fucked her on our master bed. I diddent cryed becsuse he was fucking her but because I then realy understand that this was a no turning back moment! And that she let him tell me was verry hard and humiliating for me to deal with.
But now I love to just lick her and to be her cuckold and I realy showing her Bull submissive respect! And the short videos she and somtimes her Bull have showed me has defiinitively convinsed me the same that its no turning back and convinced me to just be contempt to be her cucky.
Som few times because of my pride I tryed to talk back to the Bull he just shouted shout the fuck up and watch this. Then he showed me video where he slaming my Wifes pussy and she litarly screeming thank you Sir. Please spank my Ass and fuck me harder because Im your sluth.
Then he often say somthing lik " Do you realy think she or I listen to your demans ore give a dam about your disabilities? No sir I say. One time he even ofret me to fuck het after he had fucked her two times in one our but told me that he would film it and watch it together with my Wife and friends. Then I told hin no thanx sir because that would be to humiliating for me.
So after this difrent experience I realiced that her Black Bull is clearly superior to me. Bouth in fucking and in dominance and he often remind me of that. My Wife have also alowed him to dicipline me if he think I need it. So I guess it would be real patetick if I trye to act like the Man of the House.
Sorry my long answeer.
But its so many things, strugles but most of all satesfaction to be a Cuckold that its no chourt answeer to give.