Overview, I’m still pretty new to this and haven’t shared my girlfriend yet. She is very sexual and sensual, she’s spiritual and loves that element of sex as well. We have awesome sex together but do a long distance relationship (until I move in probably a year) so we only see each other every month or two but when we do it’s amazing, sex and everything else. However the cuckolding talk has come up and I have very mixed feelings!
Like I said she’s a very sexual and spiritual girl, she believes in chakras and energies and sex being a huge part of healing them/opening them etc. She jerks off a lot, but I know she craves the real deal more often than what we can currently do together. We are head over heels in love and she will wait till the end for me to move in with her but I still feel bad about it.
I had a snoop on her technology when I went to visit after a few months of dating (I know I should have done this) and her laptop was clean but her iPad was her porn device and I noticed it wasn’t all BBC porn but the majority of it was, she has a very definite fantasy of a slightly older hung back man for sure (she’s 26 for reference). I don’t blame her at all, BBC porn is hot and I jerk off to it too sometimes but I never mentioned anything.
Fast forward to the last time I visited (3 weeks before I’m writing this) and on a night out we go to a strip club, I’ve been a few times with free but it’s her first time and she loves it! Wants to stay longer than I do and keeps saying how hot the girls are etc. that night in the hotel room she dances and strips for me (she’s an amazing dancer) and we have incredibly hot sex to a role play where she’s a stripper who fucks the clientele. I start to realize that her fucking other men is a really present fantasy for her and the role play is so hot it makes me start to fantasize a little about it!
Since that trip I’ve not been able to get it out of my head and I’ve started masturbating to cuckold porn and it has completely unlocked my favorite fetish I didn’t know I had! It has to be BBC cuckold though, white cuckold just doesn’t do it for me for some reason? Maybe because I see myself as equal to them or something. We continue to do the hot roleplay where she is shared with other men when we have facetime sex, and when I was horny, I was super nervous but I revealed that I’d be really turned on by watching her have sex with black men and she’s very shocked but roles with our horny talk and we make each other cum talking about a cuckolding scenario, literally could not have gone better!
Now here comes the mixed feelings part though, several months ago we both said the other could have one “hall pass” to have sex with whoever they want guilt free if the opportunity arose, we both briefly spoke about celebrities or whatever and I didn’t think too much of it not thinking it would happen. She brings it up again the other day, saying would we ever use it for normal people in life, not just celebrities? I kind of dodged it because I was nervous and didn’t know what to say but I know exactly who she wants.
She works in a restaurant as a server and there is a guy who comes in for breakfast sometimes and occasionally just for a *******, he’s about 6 feet tall, black, she says he’s 41 but he looks younger I think personally, not shredded but in decent shape, very charismatic and charming, all the girls at her work swoon over him, she denies she has a crush on him as well but I’ve seen her and her friends talk on their group chat. This guy hits on her all the time, she says they just joke and rip into each other but it’s so blatant.
I know she wants to fuck him, and In theory I’d absolutely love that for her and would hopefully watch! But in practice I don’t know if I’d like it or if I’d get overtaken with jelousy? I think I worry about the aftermath as well, like if she ended up falling for him or leaving me for him or just to enjoy more guys? We have a deep love and I’m confident in saying sex life is amazing for both of us but she clearly does want to enjoy some BBC and I have strong fantasies of her doing it as well.
I’m 6’2, below average cock, decent looking, good shape but I’m under no illusion that I’m anywhere near a Black Alpha, so yeah I’m just worried after he gives her the sex of her life she won’t be mine anymore, I really don’t know which way to go with this.
Anyone who’s had a similar situation please share!
Like I said she’s a very sexual and spiritual girl, she believes in chakras and energies and sex being a huge part of healing them/opening them etc. She jerks off a lot, but I know she craves the real deal more often than what we can currently do together. We are head over heels in love and she will wait till the end for me to move in with her but I still feel bad about it.
I had a snoop on her technology when I went to visit after a few months of dating (I know I should have done this) and her laptop was clean but her iPad was her porn device and I noticed it wasn’t all BBC porn but the majority of it was, she has a very definite fantasy of a slightly older hung back man for sure (she’s 26 for reference). I don’t blame her at all, BBC porn is hot and I jerk off to it too sometimes but I never mentioned anything.
Fast forward to the last time I visited (3 weeks before I’m writing this) and on a night out we go to a strip club, I’ve been a few times with free but it’s her first time and she loves it! Wants to stay longer than I do and keeps saying how hot the girls are etc. that night in the hotel room she dances and strips for me (she’s an amazing dancer) and we have incredibly hot sex to a role play where she’s a stripper who fucks the clientele. I start to realize that her fucking other men is a really present fantasy for her and the role play is so hot it makes me start to fantasize a little about it!
Since that trip I’ve not been able to get it out of my head and I’ve started masturbating to cuckold porn and it has completely unlocked my favorite fetish I didn’t know I had! It has to be BBC cuckold though, white cuckold just doesn’t do it for me for some reason? Maybe because I see myself as equal to them or something. We continue to do the hot roleplay where she is shared with other men when we have facetime sex, and when I was horny, I was super nervous but I revealed that I’d be really turned on by watching her have sex with black men and she’s very shocked but roles with our horny talk and we make each other cum talking about a cuckolding scenario, literally could not have gone better!
Now here comes the mixed feelings part though, several months ago we both said the other could have one “hall pass” to have sex with whoever they want guilt free if the opportunity arose, we both briefly spoke about celebrities or whatever and I didn’t think too much of it not thinking it would happen. She brings it up again the other day, saying would we ever use it for normal people in life, not just celebrities? I kind of dodged it because I was nervous and didn’t know what to say but I know exactly who she wants.
She works in a restaurant as a server and there is a guy who comes in for breakfast sometimes and occasionally just for a *******, he’s about 6 feet tall, black, she says he’s 41 but he looks younger I think personally, not shredded but in decent shape, very charismatic and charming, all the girls at her work swoon over him, she denies she has a crush on him as well but I’ve seen her and her friends talk on their group chat. This guy hits on her all the time, she says they just joke and rip into each other but it’s so blatant.
I know she wants to fuck him, and In theory I’d absolutely love that for her and would hopefully watch! But in practice I don’t know if I’d like it or if I’d get overtaken with jelousy? I think I worry about the aftermath as well, like if she ended up falling for him or leaving me for him or just to enjoy more guys? We have a deep love and I’m confident in saying sex life is amazing for both of us but she clearly does want to enjoy some BBC and I have strong fantasies of her doing it as well.
I’m 6’2, below average cock, decent looking, good shape but I’m under no illusion that I’m anywhere near a Black Alpha, so yeah I’m just worried after he gives her the sex of her life she won’t be mine anymore, I really don’t know which way to go with this.
Anyone who’s had a similar situation please share!