Exactly. I LOVED the sex with him and I was really getting into being shared by him as it got him off, etc and that sex was also VERY exciting for me.
If he would have been just a bit more transparent, I would have continued fucking other men for him. He had it, me, all. I liked it all with him as he was very much pushing my boundaries all the time. He taught me a lot and had me exploring way further than I would have ever even thought of. He could have taken me so much further down that rabbit hole. I literally would have done anything sexually he wanted.
If he contacted me even after all this time, I’d fuck him again. It’s a bit scary the sexual hold he has on me. I guess it was all the fantastic sex and making me so sub to explore. It’s weird and a bit embarrassing but I’m happy and thankful he whored me, what an amazing sexual experience it was to be told what hotel, room number, and time - and be told to “be the best fuck ever to my friend_____.” I had amazing sex with quite a few gorgeous big men. Some encounters would be 3-4 hours, some went all night. Oddly no regrets.