The feelings that you are experiencing is what I have felt and what we have experienced. Your marriage and children are more important than your orgasm. It is natural that you feel this way and we know it is not right but we do it anyway. Anyone who criticized you for the above post, just does not get it. These pages and other forums are littered with heartache, disease, divorce, and the consequences of bad decision making. There is a lot of toxic shame associated with this lifestyle. But can we stop? Yes, you feel guilty but you cannot get an erection without fantasizing about it. Are you showing your wife you love here by giving her way? How many people do this and the wife loses respects and fall in love with her lover? How many wives leave their husband at the urging of their bulls? Can a wife really love a husband who puts his orgasm over his and his wife's own interest? My wife stopped because of the feelings and the danger to our relationships. I keep on trying to get her to go back, but with no luck.As a real life cuckold couple there are many feelings that take hold. Tonight the wife is off on an over night with her regular lover, while the husband is left at home to clean the house and tend to the animals. For me the husband who writes this there are mixed feelings. I am aroused knowing she is getting used, perhaps by her bull and his friend. I will get no picutres and do not even know if they sleep in the same bed. She will return tomorrow afternoon, I will remove her pants and be required to clean her, then I will fuck her but must pull out and cum on her belly. As I type this, my cock gets hard, I will probally jack off for hours not cumming so I can hold it for when she gets back. For her I can tell she is feeling excited but concerned, she texts me from the casino to see what I am doing, when she is not with him she trys to reach out. I feel like a mix of resentement and excitement. I told her last night I did not really want her to go but whta choice did I have, she said now you say it after I planned to go. I know I could have ****** the issue but it seems wrong. I was tempted as I am every time to tell her this is the last time. But I know it will not be. She will smell of him for days, and I will get aroused and make love to her.
While I do not know for sure I can tell when they are fucking and not in the casino becasue she will not answer me while she is with him It is like I do not exist. This time I do not even know where they are staying.
Its funny the last time she never left down and spent the night at a local hotel, and only told me later.
She doe care about my feelings but it seems she forgets when she is with him. I think it is an escape for her so I let her have it even as I hurt at some level.
They have been fucking weekly or more for 10 years, I worry about the future, but she assures me I am her partner and she is happy with me.
These are random real feelings and thoughts as I experinece once again the real cuckold life. Those of you who have this fantacy, take heed, it is complicaed in our society and you will battle many feelings.
I hope this is interesting to some. I am sure there will be the oh she loves him comments or other foolishness and perhaps that is part of the thrill.
Thank you for sharing.