Have you gotten any closer to getting real BBC?
We had a great conversation about it last night. Over some wine we discussed J fucking a BBC for what must have been a good couple of hours. She brought it up initially in a round-a-bout subtle way. I knew what she was doing so I ran with it. Proof to me that she wants this deep down. We covered a few red lines and ‘procedures’ and fears and worries, but ultimately we have moved this along nicely..
The long and the short of it (no pun intended) is that we established that it *will* happen - which is an incredible progression. However, we spent a lot of time talking about when, how and with who. We spoke about how the occasion would pan out (not just the fucking but also the build up, the meet, the getting to know the bull, etc). Another point J raised was what if it really is true that once you go black you never go back, to which i replied, well that’s simple...we do it again and again? J’s main concern is that we’ll lose respect for each other. I told her that I will idolise her even more afterwards, but that if she’s going to lose respect for me then that’s a red line I won’t cross. Told her we’d take it bit by bit and gauge our feelings every step of the way. What if it physically hurts was another concern. I told J that’s she’s a very sexual woman and she will be able to ‘take’ it. I know that for a fact because on the few occasions that we’ve used a big 9in dildo she’s taken it all, with ease, all the way in, even though she has a beautiful tight pussy normally, it stretches when it needs to. I repeated a few times to her that I think she will really, really enjoy it, and if she does I will, more so.
Another of J’s concerns is that we’ll lose our love and intimacy for each other. I said to her worst case we do this once and both regret it. Jeez we’ve been through a fuck of a lot together we’ll put this down to just another dumb experimental thing we’ve done, then get on with our life again, laugh about it, get turned on by it and move on.
The main thing is we are talking about it. Baby steps. Discuss, wait, discuss more, leave it a while and then when the time is right we’ll know. I hope at least!!
We had passionate sex last night. J was horny as hell. She needed to be fucked following our chat and that says it all to me, no?