Ready to embrace it all. Fully submitting to GF and guiding her towards hotwife lifestyle

[ready2serveher]

Hello,
I'm a long time BBC lover.
You know the story probably, I started with porn, many ago.
Went through everything that made me cum, discovered cuckolding porn, BBC was already there but I wasn't really aknowledging it.
Ended up for the last about 5 years getting the highest pleasure from watching BBC hypnos, BBC worship etc.

There's at this moment nothing that arouses me more.
If or when I say there is, I'm lying to myself.

Even my super hot GF, who I am ready to offer for training to the right bull, hotwife, bbc, cucks etc.
I've already did my part, I can offer a lot of details but she is ready to fully take over and I am fully ready to submit to her 24/7 and support her!

We need you!
I have a board where I gathered a lot of her amazing photos, many nudes, paired them with BBC pics, wrote stories, wishes, I am ready to share that too with you!

Please, help me! And you Will be rewarded!

 

[ready2serveher]

Why am I asking for help and not doing it myself?
1. I cannot contain myself, I cannot take it slow with her, i don't have patience, and I didn't know how to handle rejection,
but she's been steadily rejecting me sexually more and more.
2. She is already dominant, she loves control, I've just been very stupid and not fully accept it.
3. I complained a lot about us not having sex for a loong time.


I'm telling you, she has at least Cuckoldress material, but I really bet she could go a lot higher, Hotwife, and even QoS, I really believe that.
Why I believe so? Just a few reasons:

1. She loves to have control
2. She is extremely hot (I hope you'll get to see how hot)
3. She asked a guy's phone number right in front of me and an entire house party, there were about 7-8 other guys that started cheering for the guy she asked her of. I was standing next to her.
4. She humiliates me in public, but pretty subtly for now
5. She complains to our friends I'm not good and don't do the dishes, do not clean etc.
6. First time I told her: I sometimes fap to the image of you fucking somebody else, she said: ah, I can have a solo trip. But I was too sissy (i guess) to keep going
7. At one point I confessed I fap to BBC cuckold, BBC worship porn, BBC *******. I showed her one Blacked video of a pornstar that looks like her, she pretend she doesn;t get it, and then like a silly cuck i straight up showed her a BBC ******* video for sissies.
8. At some point in the video, the voice says and the screen reads: "All you need to do is be passive and accept" while showing BBCs being sucked and worshiped by sexy women.
9. All she said about that was 2 things: a) "I think we need to break up, I need a real man" b) "You saw what that video said: YOU NEED TO ACCEPT IT"

And here I am, accepting it.

Now I'm making a plan on how to convince her that I want to take at least 7 day vacation and just totally submit to her. I don't want to mention the sexual part at first cause I don't want to scare her off.

While she is trully a sex machine (FUcked her into becoming obsessed with my cock years ago when we started dating),
Unfortunately She has a lot of preconceptions about sex and is not easy for her to open up.

That's why I want to trully serve her for at least one week and basically become her servant.


I'm all over the place even with this story...

 

[ready2serveher]

I showed her the BBC ******* videos I watch, all she said was 1: Maybe we should break up, I need a real Man, 2. You saw what the video said, you need to Accept!

 

[ready2serveher]

How I worship BBC:

- the craving is always strong and intense. I get a rush of *******, feeld the adrenaline. I'm not always hard (maybe it's because I'm not supposed, allowed or permited to have a hard cock).
- sometimes when I fap I still compare how hard I get to some porn I also enjoy and going straight to any bbc porn where bbc is simply delivering like you ALL BLACK KINGS with Superior Black Cocks do. And I'm grateful for that
- Sometimes Asses win, women's asses. They are divine and just strip me of a lot of things. They need to be worshiped and fucked and spanked. Fuuck! And by fuck I mean I still want to fully enjoy them, including fucking them, like fucking in the ass real hard.
- but years of cuckold porn, extremes, cuckold, bbc, cheating, bbc ******* videos,
- I feel like I need to play one right now.
- and get super horny, get into a trance, and basically worship.
- bbc is feels like my religion sometimes
- but when I test it a bit deeper, it appears shallow.
- and probably that's another thing that got me hoked on worshipping Big Black Cock.
- and then i skip from one image to another, from bbc porn to
- I fantasize and fetishize to worship you
- I get a good amount of female attention and I could really introduce BBC to them, but I' get to eager when I try, like starting slowly, whenever we open up about any sexual stuff. Thus I still consider I need to be trained. And as you'll train me, I'll give a lot.
- why do I still feel guilt about this?
- is it wrong to project all of this onto my gf? her signs really are pointing towards enjoying this a lot.
- on the other side, i'm not sure I want to fully commint, like live this lifestyle 100% of the time.

You out there who reads, is there a middle way?

How?
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