Why am I this submissive, why do I want n feel like I need a man to control me??? He could literally tell me sit there n watch me fuck this bitch n u bet not say ******* ,,, I would just sit there like a dummy n do it… sometimes I think I’m crazy , am I that desperate for love maybe?? Or am I addicted to pain… I learned how to love pain instead of being afraid of it… I embrace the hurt, wow I’m fucked up!!!